Fake Smile - A term which directly tells that this are words from the diary of a Frustrated Person. May be that's true to some level but now completely true also. Its little bit complicated.
This blog as a whole will be more about my own life, the pain which I felt, felling and will feel I don't know till what time.
I have never written any blogs till date or was neither even interested in writing any. But today was a very different day. The power which forced me or compelled me to start writing blogs are few heart touching songs which seriously made me feel that the smile which I had on my face last night till 4:30 AM and again today morning after waking up from sleep are really true or fake.
Pain as I may say is part of my life(I know that most of the people say like that) but like every other person get a relief or a ray of hope after sometime of darkness in there life I didn't received any till date. Its like I always have the belief that may be tomorrow is the day which will bring hope in my life but that tomorrow didn't came till now.
Frustu - This have became one of my name. The term which I always tried to avoid is now part of my life and my best friend. The darkness which came into my life is like in no mood of leaving me till I give up my life.
Now what is this Fake Smile all about. Its about the smile which I have in my face from the moment I wake up till the time I go to sleep. Yes I am a very jolly person and always like to see other's smile but in this daily routine of giving other's a smile I have lost my own true smile. Today I wear a smile in my face with lots of pain in my heart. Even time comes when by seeing a person or talking with a person I smile from my heart but on the very next moment the smile converts to a fake smile with a deep pain in heart that the same person may never accept me or neither she will stay in my life the way she is now.
Yes I know that many will say the same proverb that "ladki bus ki tarah hoti hai ek jaigi toh dusri aayegi". But the problem is that not all bus will go to the same destination and neither you will be in a mood to board all the buses.
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I don't know to how many people my letters will reach. But if any1 of you are really interested to know more about my life and help me out then Please check on my Next Blog - "What Happened Last Night - Fake Smile". The reason why I am not mentioning everything here becoz I don't want to trouble those who are not interested.
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